Friday, February 27, 2009

I did it again

I am noticing that my period sometimes results in inappropriate dietary decisions. I decided Thursday evening that it was a good idea to have KFC and two donuts from Tim Hortons. Boy was I thirsty on Friday.

I realize today it was not the result of my period, although it was a contributing factor. It was primarily because I was seeing an old friend on Saturday. We were good friends but since I went overseas for a year, she got engaged and things changed.

I don't like the way I am with her. It comes down to the fact that I don't trust her. And when I do see her, she is condescending and judgmental. Sometimes she is like that with me, but for the most part, she is like that in general. A lot of the time when we do talk, I feel like she is talking at me, it is not a conversation. We tried to talk about what happened, but she doesn't really want to talk about it.

For me, it came down to when I came back, whenever we did things, we it became a trio event. She told me later that her and her fiance were an inseparable unit, so I felt like she did not want to be friends with me. I felt hurt. Before, she was a confidant, but now she is not. Before we'd talk about everything and now the conversations are superficial and generic.

She asked me one question that bothered me. She asked me if I ever wanted to get married, out of the blue. She said I never talked about it with her and I remember plenty of times were we discussed it. It seemed like such a loaded question. I really cannot phanthom the motivation behind that question. The only logically explanation I can see is she thinks that I don't believe in marriage ergo, I don't believe in hers. I think it was her tone of "disgust" or "contempt" that asked the question that bothered me more than anything. It seemed like the only right answer is "yes" even though marriage is a personal choice. She use to be a very direct person, but now she is sooooooooooooooooo passive aggressive.

I think it comes down to the fact where I don't trust her. I feel like I have to prove myself to her when I have done nothing but be honest with her. And it still seems like she has not tried. I've been the one to make the effort the past few times, and she's either ignored me or been slow to respond. I feel like I've done my part, and that she needs to put in the effort. If she wants this friendship, she will actually try.

I have to say, before I was afraid of not being friends with purely because we were friends for so long. Before I was afraid of ending the friendship, but now I feel okay on just letting this friendship go. At this point, I feel like I did the mature and responsible thing.

In the end I am pleased with how things went, and it just reminds me to be grateful for the real friends in my life.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I learned my lesson

So today is weigh in week. And these are my results.

Wednesday Feb 25
Weight: 200 (↓ 1 lbs)
Waist: 33.55 (↓ .25 inches)
Belly Button: 38.25 (↓ .25 inches)
Hips: 45.75 (↓ .25 inches)
Calories burned (total): 3174 3641 (↓ calories)↑ 118 inches)

Good news, I am still losing weight (yeah!!!!). Not as successful as the past two weeks (I think we all know why) so I am going to be more aware of my choices.

A few changes I will be making. First, I started strength training with free weights and I am glad I made that change. I can feel my upper body work out today. Second, I am going to throw in 2 high cardio, interval workouts on my strength training days. Third, I am going to eat more veggies. I think I am lacking in veggies, so for lunches now I will eat salads and soup and for supper, I will roast some veggies to eat with my supper meals.

I think this will help me sustain a 3lb/wk weight loss. What I envision now is walking across the stage at graduation at 165 lbs and being 135 in September. I know I am there. I know that have that body, know i just have to put the effort in.

Stay well!!!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Belt

I nicely re-cooperated after the slip on Sunday. Today I had a complete (500 calorie burning) workout. The thought of doing strength training with the bands was too much, so I switched back to the yoga ball and weights. My strength has improved substantially since I started Dec 31. Either the swimming or the band workouts have really improved my upper body to the point that I can now do push ups on the ball easily and before there were quite difficult.

And now for the good news. I am on the last notch of my belt!!! In a few weeks I'll need a new belt (yes!!!!). With that, I am confident that tomorrow will show a weight and inch loss, how much after Sunday's incident, not sure, but I'll still be on the loosing side.

I recently amended my measurement goals to be 29/39 waist hip, but I was on the GAP sizing chart and that puts me at a 10. So I am re-ammending it to be 26-28/36-38. That will ut me at a 4-8.

I think I will go test shopping soon (when I have time) to see what size I am now. Luckiy for me, there is a mall across from where I work and I have 14s and 12s in my closet. I want to wait until the low 190s or high 180s to do it. I have a feeling that will be really really really soon.

Stay well!!!!

Monday, February 23, 2009

A fell into some whipped cream

First I'll start with the good news. I was down to 199.5 on sunday which I was excited about. I went out for breakfast with my friend, and tried to have a healthy meal. I am not an egg eater, so I had this dish with potatoes, peppers, mushrooms. toast and some egg on the side. I think it was a good choice.

Lunch was fine, but for some reason on the drive home I was just craving chocolate. I ended up going to the grocery store and getting chinese food and a donut filled with whipped cream. We are not going to attempt to guess on the amount of calories and fat that I consumed in one meal. Safe to say, I did not bother weighing myself today. I went into the usually sugar coma (after my stomach felt uber stuffed) and went to bed shortly there after.

I did get on the treadmill today and I had a good breakfast, snack, and lunch. I can feel the affects of my food choices in my feet. Last week, my shoes felt too big and today they feel too small. I don't know if it is retained water or what, but whenever I have too much sugar or salt, I feel it in my extremities.

I am still hopefully that Wednesday will be a success. I am not weighing myself until then.

Stay Well!!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Progress

So yesterday is weigh in day. Safe to say I was nervous and was not sure to expect. But I am happy with the results.

Wednesday Feb 18
Weight: 201 (↓ 3 lbs)
Waist: 33.75 (↓ .25 inches)
Belly Button: 38.5 (↓ .50 inches)
Hips: 46 (↓ .25 inches)
Calories burned (total): 3641 (↑ 118 calories)

Even with the slip ups, I still made progress. The possibility of being 135 by September is a definite possibility. I am a full on size 14, and it makes me wonder at what weight I will be a size 12. It has been a long time since I was a size 12, I smile will be on my face when I make it. I am guessing that will be at about the high-mid 180s, so by April 1st (April Fools day, lol).

Off to work. Stay well!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Hunger

I started my new job today which requires a new routine. I have to get up at 5am in order to workout for 1 hour and get to work at 8am. So today I did high inclines on the treadmill and then strength training. I am not sure if it was the early morning on the cardio then strength workout, but I was hungry today. I ate what I usually ate, but it did not seem like enough. So for supper I had a little bit more than I should have plus 2 cookies. I definitely over ate a little bit, but it is funny that before me overeating was a bigger experience (and I do mean bigger).

I was more anxious than usual today, for various reasons and I know that did not help. One of the things I am anxious about is getting to 135 my September. That means I need to loose, on average, 2.3 lbs per week. I know it is doable and that I have already done it (in my head) but this means stepping it up. And this means that for my birthday and my graduation, I will be a healthy mid-160s. The idea of that makes me smile. When I graduated high school, I weight about 140 (after losing about 35 lbs) so walking across the exact same stage 7 years and 12 days later, being 160s (which I have not been since 2003) will be worth the sweat.

But I also need to ensure I am successful in my studies, and my modules. I am trying to focus on the modules once May starts and just focus on my classes right now.....trying.

Anyway, tomorrow is weigh in day and after V-day, popcorn (oh yeah, I had some popcorn on Monday night, being 202 will be good. And no matter what, next Wednesday I will be under 200. That is a promise!!

Stay well!!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Tsk...Tsk

I survived Valentine's Day weekend (barely). So on Valentine's I had a good workout (burned 738 calories), I had a healthy breakfast and lunch. I hade one of my desserts for lunch and that was fine. For supper, things got crazy. We ordered pasta from a local restaurant for supper. I had cheese tortellini in a cream sauce and my tiramisu cake for dessert. Fat overload. Because I was eating so healthy the past few weeks, my body completely rejected the food.

I had a upset stomach and the runs for the evening. It did taste good, but what it did to my body was not worth it. Safe to say, I did not suffer calorically from this feast, because I did not keep much of it down.

I redeemed myself on Sunday. I went for my usually morning swim and tried to push myself harder to make up for Saturday. And I went to a veggie restaurant with my aunt for lunch and had a delicious (and healthy) meal. I love this restaurant!! I can eat out, have delicious food, and it is healthy!!!! In the evening I went on a walk in the evening along the beach, so overall I had a great, healthy day.

Today I ordered a new workout program on the telly. Criss Cross Cardio, it is has some kickboxing movies. In 44mins I burned 403 calories. I am sure by the second and third time, I'll get a better feel for it and burn more calories. I am going to to a quick, high incline 25m walk this afternoon (trying to burn at least another 200 calories). Trying to hit 3500 calories this week, I am close. If I stick with my schedule, I'll definitely make it. I am unofficially at 202.5 (I am trying to lose another 1lb by Wednesday). I am going to a movie tonight, and I have to say I am pretty good at movies (I am usually too cheap to buy anything) but might get some carrots and hummous for a snack).

Stay well!!!

Friday, February 13, 2009

Sleepy

Working + 2 classes + procrastination = less exercise

I am currently taking two classes as I work. Have I kept up to date with those classes....NO. With two assignments due this week (one due yesterday and one due today) I have pulled a few late nights which then greatly affects my workouts. I did not do anything yesterday and today I just walked for 25 mins. On a normal day, not working out in the morning or having a small workout would be fine. However, last night and tonight I work and then I have classes until 9pm.

I think the hinderance cramming has on my workouts is enough to keep me on track and organize. Its funny that it takes my fitness and health to force me to stay on top of my academic goals.

Valentine's Day Connundrum...

What to do?!?!?!?!? I have been eating healthy and working out and I've lost 10lbs. And tomorrow is V-Day (aka my excuse to gorge myself with chocolate). Normally I overload on chocolate, I take this day as a free pass, but this year will be different. With my current weight somewhere between 202-204, getting under 200lb is within my reach. And Sunday, I am going to lunch with my aunt (some place delicious no doubt). Is it okay to have a "pass" for one dessert (albeit, maybe a huge dessert) and one delicious meal on Sunday? I think the only way I can allow myself this deviation (especially with my lack of exercise yesterday and minimal workout today) is if I burn at least 750 calories on Saturday AND Sunday (preferable 1000). What would you do?
I think the main question is, how bad to I want to be under 200. And, can I get there by next Wednesday (if so, than be a saint and deviate only one day) or if I cannot get there until the following Wednesday, then I can deviate once on both days.

Hmmmm....I need to mull it over. I'll do an unofficial weigh in tomorrow, make sure I burn at least 750 on Saturday and then make a decision.

Stay well!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Yeah!

So today is weigh in day

Wednesday Feb 11
Weight: 204 (↓ 4 lbs)
Waist: 34 (↓ .75 inches)
Belly Button: 39 (↓ .50 inches)
Hips: 46.25 (↓ .50 inches)
Calories burned (total): 3523 (↓ 424 inches)

I am quite happy with my success this week. I know the under eating was not good, but more workouts are good.

I do love how good I feel. Ahh!!!! Things are good and I am happy and grateful that they will continue to be great!!!!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Oopps

I have been under eating. It is not something I am proud of, it is also not something I am doing intentionally. This is how it started, it is a combo of a few things.

1) I am not eating at restaurants, coffee shops, etc. So I am use to being in a hurray and sometimes picking up something to eat on the fly instead of planning to make sure I have enough time to eat.
2) I had 3 shifts at work from 11am-3pm, which overlapped lunch, so I've just been snacking for lunch.

So these two things combined, I've undereaten on my calories. Do you know how I can tell without keeping track of what I am eating? There are a few days where I have not felt 150%, and it is because I was no consistently getting the nutrition I need.

My goal is to ensure I am getting enough food to go through my day at full force, not just at half force.

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I still have not exercised today. I had an interview yesterday, so I straightened my hair and this morning I had one at 9am so I opted not to exercise until afterwards (to keep the hair straight) and I work until 8pm tonight. I have to study when I get home, but at the very least, I have to walk for 30mins. Tomorrow, I have 3 more interviews and I am going for a strong cardio, walk and a little bit of yoga. Going to wake up at 5:30am to get 'er done. I have to figure out when I am swimming. I should tomorrow, in the afternoon I'll aim.

Why did I procrastinate in doing my assignments? C'est la vie. I am just going to focus and get them done.

Stay well!

Friday, February 6, 2009

Breakthrough!

I had a physical breakthrough.

First, twice this week I sustained a higher level of incline on the treadmill and at a lower heart rate!!! This means that my body is adapting and my cardiovascular healthy is improving! This is the first time I've noticed this since I started in December. I am so excited!!!!!

Second, I feel stronger. That yoga class on Tuesday night really challenged me in a new way and since then I have felt consistently stronger. I also realized how effective those Real Age tubing workouts have been. I want to keep doing them one day a week, and with the yoga twice a week and the strength training in those cardio workouts I am doing now, that should help me improve my strength a lot!!!.

Third, I did an unofficial weigh in today and I am down to 205!!! How awesome is that!!!!! I am hoping for another 1-2 lb loss by Wednesday so I will have lost 10 lbs since Dec 31 (remember, starting weight 214) mark.


Short term goal: in the 190s by Feb 25th. That is 6 lbs in 18 days (2.5 weeks)...totally doable!!!!!


All these things have got me dancing in my seat, and today I tried on these pants that were crazy tight a month and a half ago, and today I am wearing them proud and comfortably!!!!

I feel so fantastic right now. I keep envisioning what it will be like to be 175 lbs, how strong and healthy I'll feel. And what it will be like to be 135 lbs, how confident and sexy I'll feel. I already feel more confident and sexy already!!!! Its amazing what a little muscle can do for a girl ;)

And I this only eating food I cook (not restauarants, coffee shops, etc) is helping me meet my nutritional needs.

And I have two interviews next week...life is pretty awesome. Next, is that boyfriend. I know he is there in the future (hopefully the near future ;) ).

Stay well and keep up the great work!!!!!!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Ommmm

I have some catching up to do.

A week ago, thanks so Suze Orman, I made a pledge to forgo restaurants for the month of February. So Saturday night was my last supper (and unfortunately I ended with a midnight serving of yucky fast food). I am on day 4, and so far it has been good. Every time I leave the house I think of how long I am going to be out and make sure I pack enough food. I am confident that I will be able to successful meet this challenge.


Wednesday Feb 4
Weight: 208 (↓ 1 lbs)
Waist: 34.75 (↓ .25 inches)
Belly Button: 39.5 (same)
Hips: 46.75 (↓ .25 inches)
Calories burned (total): 3947 (↑ 1766)

I am still losing. I know why I did not have a good weight loss breakthrough this weak - extra food. I am still pleased with the continued loss.

On a positive note, I started doing yoga again!!! I went to my first class in months on Tuesday night and it felt good. My goal is to go to one class a week and do an additional 3 at home sessions. I am determined to stick with yoga now indefinitely.

I have been eating very well this week, especially since I have forsaken eating out.

Stay well everyone and happy exercising!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Belated mesaurements

I did not update my measurements, so here it is.


Wednesday Jan 28
Weight: 209 (↓ 0.5 lbs)
Waist: 35 (same)
Belly Button: 39.5 (same)
Hips: 47 (↓ .25 inches)
Calories burned (total): 2181 (↓ 2148)

My fast food encounters did not help my weight loss, but on the plus side, I did loose half a pound and a quarter inch off my hips. Really, I did not gain. My goal is to get back to 3500 calories, with a minimum of 500 calories a day. I think within a week or two, I will be able to consistently burn 500 calories a day.