U-Turn

Ok, I've hit my threshold. After using food as punishment, reward, and comfort and slacking off on exercise the past few weeks, I've hit my threshold.

I am going to do a week by week comparison so you can see my journey.

Apr 1 Apr 8 Apr 15 Apr 22 Sep 24/08
Weight: 189.5 191 192 197 191.5
Waist: 32 32.25 32.75 33 33
Belly Button: 36.25 36.5 37.25 38.25 37.75
Hips: 44.75 44.5 44.75 45 44.75

On the 81th and 15th I was not concerned because it was just a few downs. But this week I gained 5 lbs in 1 week. That is enough for me to clearly see what I've been subjecting my body to. I will keep comparing myself to Sept 24/08 until I surpass it again.

I went to a spin class last night to jolt my body back into gear, and it helped. That and watching the biggest loser really helped. Tara's strength and determination is amazing!!!!!!! I am going to get a picture of her and put it on my mirror. Remind myself the strength that everyone of us has.

I was going a bit to extreme, I need to find that moderate balance. I think the new workout schedule and burning 2400 calories a week will work.

1.5lb/wk 185 by June 17
2.0lb/wk 181 by June 17
2.5lb/wk 177 by June 17

Since I am taking it 10lbs at a time (sort of, this goal I am taking it 12 lbs). I am focusing on 185. If I stay with 1.5, I'll be 167-157 by Sept 9th. If I have a few 3 lb weeks and the odd 4 lbs weeks, that is fine. But losing weight while doing CASB is all about patience. This is for the rest of my life.......I can be patient.

Fear took over me. And one of the things I was afraid of was putting weight on but not being able to stop and get back to being healthy. I am not my old me. I am my new me. Acknowledge my feelings and fears, treat my body with respect and embrace the moment.

I need to shower and get to work. Everyone be well!!!